I'm not the richest person, i don't have a perfect family, nor do I have a magnificent life. My house is filled with my screaming brothers, sisters, and parents. It's always filthy and has an empty refrigerator. I don't mind any of these things though. Well, simply, because i'm never there. The two special people in my life always take me far away, even if it's just for a little while after school.
These two people are my boyfriend, Tim, and my best friend, Lilly.
My family moves a lot. So, five years ago, when i was thirteen years old, we moved to a small house. It was just two feet away from the neighboring house, who lived a boy named Tim. He asked me out one day while sitting by the pool we both share. I couldn't resist his charming smile and kind words. We grew closer and closer over the years. He isn't the most romantic man i've ever encountered, but he is the love of my life. Even though he doesn't have all the money in the world, he always figures out how to get me the things i want.
Before him i met her. One day, many summers ago, i came across a chubby girl. She won me over with her smile and kind words. We began to do everything together and soon became best friends. We know everything about each other. She can tell what mood i'm in just by the sound of my voice or the look on my face. She knows exactly what i want to eat and what music i feel like listening to. We always end each others sentences. Every time i'm in trouble she stops everything and comes to my rescue.
Tim and Lilly make it so i'm never sad. I never have a reason to be sad. They are always there, taking me away from all my problems. It seems like when i can't take life anymore one of them is there, taking me away on a vacation or for a sleepover. They are always there. I know they saved my life multiple times. I remember staring at my dad's handgun and weighing it in my hands. I put it in my mouth ready to pull the trigger when suddenly i hear Lilly's voice echoing through my home, "YOUR FAVORITE PERSON IS HERE WHO JUST GOT PAID!!!!! LETS GO SHOPPING!"
I took the gun out of my mouth and shoved it under the pile of dirty clothes on the floor. I quickly stood as Lilly's long blond hair came into view. She smiled down at me, "Lets go get the watch you've wanted! Also, i'm starved!!! I'm thinking Arby's!"
It's impossible not to return her smile. She knows me too well, food is always the way to my heart.
Every time I'm feeling at my lowest one of them is there. I would be dead without them.
Today as Lilly kidnaps me for after school coffee she turns down the blasting music. She stares straight ahead as the car moves slowly through my neighborhood.
"Courtney, we can't play like this forever."
Confusion strikes me to my core. Is she messing with me? Is this another joke? I face her, "What are you talking about?"
"I'm not really here, sweetie. I died in that car crash two years ago with Tim. We were coming back from the store after getting party supplies for your birthday."
"No, don't say that, LIlly!" I put my hands to my ears, trying to block her words from my mind, "Don't say such horrible things."
"I can't stay any longer," She sounds as if she is crying, she has never cried before me, "I tried to protect you, but i can't anymore. I have to go. My time is up."
Fear strikes my heart, She can't go. She can't. I can't live without her, without him. It's impossible.
"NO! Please, stay! I need you!"
I say those words, but once i look up through my tear blurred vision i see that she is gone. I'm in a white wall room. My scarred arms are tied to a bed and i wear a white dress. My black hair is long and tangled. My eyes are full and overflowing with tears.
I'm alone for the first time. They arent here anymore to take away my pain and it's crushing me.`
I scream out, screaming as loud as i can. My body fills with pain, bone-crushing pain. My heart feels as if it's tearing into pieces.
Nurses surround me, "She's awake. She's awake again! Put her under!"
My world begins to blur as i hear the words that tear my mind forever, "Every time she wakes she screams like this, even after two years. It's like she is broken."
"She lost her whole world in one day."
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